My Sins
Growing up in the New Apostolic Church, I was occasionally taught about moral principles, but sadly, the teaching was without power and authority.
Additionally, my heart was hardened and stuborn, always believing that the "right way" was to follow my apostle.
Proverbs 28:13 reminds us that, "He that covereth his sins shall not prosper; but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy."
Even after being ordained as a deacon in the church, my life was laced with pornography, excessive drinking, fornication, lying, and pride. I was a hypocrite, filled with dead-men's bones, a white-washed tomb and yet was making a good show as I stood in front of the choir and directed or in front a congregation to preach. My life was about putting on a "holy" front for everybody in the NAC to see while secretly, and in some cases openly, engaging in sinful activity, and nobody in the NAC loved me enough to confront me in my sin.
Indeed, I was a Pharisee, and so is every minister in the NAC to this day. Just as I was taught in the NAC to do, I perverted the Laws of Yah by obeying and teaching the commandments of men. Because the NAC does not teach the Bible, I did not believe the Bible.
In all of this sin, however, nobody in the NAC ever confronted with the truth of Scriptures.
These sins are damnable, and Yah wanted me to repent.
Instead, I trusted in the "absolution" pronounced every Sunday. No repentance needed.
I was deceived. I was on my way to hell, just as every NAC minister and member is to this day.
The preaching of NAC certainly did not help. In tones boarding on weak begging, NAC ministers scarcely preached on sound Biblical moral principles. Instead of using the scriptures, NAC ministers use a fleshly "diplomatic" approach, which implies, "I'm going to tell you that what you are doing is wrong, but please don't get mad and leave our church." Because I know the ministers in the NAC very well, I can assure you that their weak preaching is the direct result of the sin in their own lives.
The Bible, thankfully, is not so diplomatic. The truth is no respecter of persons. Hebrews 4:12 says, "For the word of Elohim is quick and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart."
Thankfully, Yah in His great mercy got through to my hard heart. Once I repented, I became truly born again. Through daily reading of the scriptures, Yah's Words were able to make me realize what a very bad situation I was in. Regardless of what any man told me, I had to confess and forsake my sin to be forgiven. While in the NAC, I found it very difficult to resist sin because my heart was not firmly rooted in Yah's Word. However, after a heavy dose of Yah's Word from the Bible, Yah revealed that His recipe for overcoming is the only one that works. Luke 13:5 reveals, "Except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish." After much prayer and fasting, I confessed my sins. Although humiliating, through the confessing, Yah gave the strength to forsake my sins.
I praise Yah for revealing His truths about sin and about forgiveness! It was not the NAC that brought me to repentance that I might receive true forgiveness. The truth of Yah's Word and the grace of our Savior brought true forgiveness and peace to my soul -- peace never offered in the New Apostolic Church.
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