Dear [Reluctant Deacon],
Firstly, I am very thankful that you have taken the time to reach out to me and am blessed to read about the war that is going on inside you. As the true Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Truth, pricks your conscience, this war will continue. The danger that I see at the moment, [Reluctant Deacon], is that if you harden your heart to the truth, then Yah will give you over to a reprobate mind so that you will start to believe the lie (as we read in Romans chapter 1) and forget that there is an absolute truth.
In Psalms 119:142, we read, “Thy righteousness is an everlasting righteousness, and thy law is truth.” Yahshua our Messiah said as recorded in John 14:6, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No man comes to the Father but by me.”
How then could Yah’s law be truth and Yahshua also be truth? Contemporary Christianity will tell you that “Jesus nailed the law to the cross,” which is to imply that we need not obey Yah’s commandments; however I strongly disagree. Ordinances and laws of men were nailed to the cross. Yah’s laws will never change. Yahshua came preaching the law and the prophets reminding the people that Yah’s commandments will not be done away with until heaven and earth are done away with. So we see that Yah’s laws are His teachings, which is His Word, and we know that Yahshua our Messiah is the Word made flesh who dwelt among us (John 1:14).
[Reluctant Deacon], it is time for man to learn anew what it means to obey his Creator’s commandments. Yah’s Word, His laws are truth forever. Because of his beastly religious systems and useless traditions, man has generally forgotten the laws of his Creator and forgotten that Yahshua our Messiah both obeyed and taught the commandments of Yah’s. He instructs us to do the same with the words, “whoever does and teaches them, he shall be called great in the reign of the heavens.” (Matthew 5:19).
This war inside of you will be won only by your true repentance and belief in Yah’s word – found in the Bible. 1 John 5:4 reveals that the victory is your faith – faith (or belief) that Yah’s word is truth forever. This war inside of you will be won only by your belief. It is time for you to repent of your sins and to start to really study Yah’s word intently. You must learn it. You must know Yah’s Word better than any other person around you, better than your apostle. The more you study Yah’s Word, the more your love and devotion for Yah’s Word will burn in your heart like a fire, and this passion for the truth of Yah’s Word will be a tremendous source of strength. You will have the strength to shed the traditions of men – including “Christmas” – and obey only Yah. You will have the strength to always know the right thing to do. You will have the strength to stare down even a torturous death with joy in your heart when Yah’s fire, the Spirit of Truth, burns inside of you.
But first you must study Yah’s Word. I encourage you to make the Bible your first love and carry it with you where ever you go, reading it and absorbing it with passion and joy, opening it to encourage others when you can, wielding it like a mighty two-edged sword when you must.
If you would like, I will be glad to prepare a Bible reading schedule for you that will take you through the entire Bible in 6 months.
Yahshua gave His life to atone for your sins because He loves you. Yah sent His son because He loves you. Reciprocate love by eating His word like Ezekiel ate it up.
May you be blessed with the Spirit of Truth, the true Holy Spirit, as you learn Yah’s Word with a pure heart and teach others His Word as well! May you be blessed with knowledge and passion from Yah’s Word so that all who hear you will repent and be saved – including your “Apostle.”
Looking forward to your victory, yours in Yahshua our Messiah,